Renovating

Tempo blog layout. Malas find now. Gonna maple

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Zero

Been months since i updated my blog. i doubt that this blog even exist anymore.

Bored right now, so why not? blogspot. the last of the last things to do once i'm bored :/

So then this year, i got the chance to go to Perth & Bangkok.

I Don't have the Perth pics in this lappy. So i'll just blog bout my bangkok trip

I know. I know. Bangkok was months back

But when i grow old, i HOPE this blog still exist & i can admire me my young self LOL & reminiscence the places i've been to.

At the DUTY FREE perfume shop. sweet big bro bought me my oh so longing DKNY peach blossom . TBH duty free AIN'T that "FREE"

Guys. am no hypocrite. i smoke too.

Marlboro FTW



One hour journey

Went for a half day tour ! price wasn't that bad.

Forgot whats this called. Long Sleeping Buddha?

Sorta became friend's with the tour guide ;TIK

He recommended us this night cruise buffet.

1000Baht Per person ! cheapp or whattt?

Went along with it after tough decisioons.

Tik & his gf joined :)

boyffie
Day 1. RM500 burned

NO SHOPPING at alll !

Oh & we went sexy show after the dinner.

Go check it out yourself loooool.

Day2 was just shopping all the way

Recommended malls ; MBK shopping mall. Platinum Fashion Mall (GIRLS PARADISE).Pantip mall (GUYS PARADISE)

For dinner we went to CABBAGES & CONDOMS.

yes, the ambience matches the name.

Tom Yam Kung (Y)

Condom Santa & some bish .loool

Took many home for souveniors.

SAFE SEX.

Day3? Chatutchak Market

We argued & got separated in the market.

When i found him after hours he was bleeding because he ran to me &... fell down. Loool. silly boy

Shopping day3 !

From our hotel back view.

Only Rm120/night.

Super cosy hotel ! Plus its new .

iPhone covers from MBK mall

Last dayy :( Buhhhbyeee.

check out their MCD. CHEESYY FRIESS !! & PORK SAMURAI !!

sorry to spoil it , but it suck balls !

kayy byeee

am so bored in uni comp lab right now
so imma spam a few pics , since ze blog looks sho boring

18th Birthdayyy

drinking with the girls

8 hours community service.

i totally had fun & loved it

meet prishalini (:

Mist@Bangsar with the lepak kaki's

awesome party ! :D

Just finished all presentations last week.

good job finals this thursday !

oh my gosh

my gawd
i'm like so bored.
read through my past
wtfomgzzz i damn emo right?

waiting for mr gavin lim jia wei. 12pm! he still not yet call ):

Helpless

Just gonna stand there & hear me cry
but it's not okay , because i'm hurting too much

I desperately had the urge to see him last night
I just wanted to run into his arms & save our relationship
I called everyone one i could think off to bring me to him
I literally shivered as i called, My drumming heartbeat
It was just a sudden urge, i felt like i could still save this

I didn't manage to see him, so i made a phone call
it was a very disappointing phone call. i tried
his words pulled me down, just so down
I totally lost hope in us
I felt so suffocated by all the pain

so helplessly suffering

we were too attached

its sucks having to sleep in my condition
trying to fall asleep so hard
& when i'm sleeping, i'm barely asleep
i can feel my heartache , tears pouring out
waking having to know , u lost someone
it makes me feel like a part of me went missing

the image of him lingers in my mind
the memories we had
the bonds we created
tears me apart

we both agreed to go our separate ways
complications were too much
i know how much i'll regret it , but seems like this is the last solution

i didn't lose my love for him, no i never once did
still do & always will

i want a great escape, from everything

i just wished i could be someone else right now.

My life

time to blog everything out
i usually don't blog about every single detail i feel
i only blog when i'm feeling down

yes i have friends to go too
yes i have my boyfriend
but will they understand?

i wished i had someone, whose facing the same problem
so that we both can talk about it freely
without having to explain over and over again

2010 hit me hard, a stepping stone to adulthood

college fees has been a burden to my mom

my brother got taken advantage of a friend, totally pissed me off
seeing him teared after so many years, hurt me
truthfully i still side my brother , no matter what fucked shyt that SOB bring's up
u lose nothing,no wait u lost a goodfriend
u took full advantage of someone who thought u were a "goodfriend"
two thumbs up for you, you threw your friendship down the drain. goodjob !

; if you want to bitch about me, i rather you bitch behind my back
because your face disgust me. your voice is like a talking cock
which make's me hate you more.

i can't socialize much with my collegemates
i never had problem making friends

my boyfriend would never fully understand me

my moodswings are crazy, & i'm so fustrated about it
i don't want to be not in talking terms with him
but i just can't help feeling so moody and down

& he would never understand
of course he wouldn't , he did nothing wrong
i just threw my fucked up mood at him
i can't control. i'm so fustrated

reality took over childhood, it hit me hard
of course i'm not gonna blaber all my problems here
& assuming other's are problem free, of course not
everyone has their rough times.

i'm always worrying about my future,
will i succeed or fail ?
can i make my parents proud ?

i got 3 distinctions & 1 pass for fucking economics
most would say its good. still i'm not that satisfied with it
yes , i shouldn't ask too much & no i'm not competing with my mates
i just want to do the best to make my parents proud, esp my mom
that's all. mom's facing financial difficulties
i feel that only with good grades i can make her happy & proud

I want to grow up & give her everything a woman should deserve
but i always tend todoubt myself.so many negative thoughts

nuff said. i have more to say
but there are no words that can fully describe my emotions

i think it's time to change my blog layout. it's so boring already !